My one and only true love.

I hold you gently in my hands. Your warmth soothes me as I imagine what is to unfold. I don't know how to survive an entire day without you. I bring you close to my lips. The hairs on the back of my neck stand up like little trees in a miniature forest filled with mythical creatures. I open my mouth. You dive in and swirl across my tongue. My eyes uncontrollably close, my head tilts back. My thoughts slowly melt into a calm sea of bliss. The world disappears around us. All is quiet. Every time I'm with you, I die and float on the clouds like angels in heaven. You pull away from my lips leaving me begging like a dirty dog whimpering for a bone. Holding you tightly in my hands, I bring you close again to my lips. I softly whisper, "I love you and will never let you go." I take another sip...

Gawd, I love coffee!!!

Letter to Mom...

Yep, I am GAY!  and I have never been happier!

The rainbow flag represents diversity.  Everyone is different, just like the colours on this flag!  No 2 shades are the same.  This is what makes the world such an interesting place.  Its not just about sexuality, or gender, but with different races too!

It has nothing to do with choice except the choice to live my life, fully and complete!

Its not from pollution, media, the way I was raised, the preservatives in our foods.  

I was born this way.

It is not your fault.  It is not anybody's fault.  This is who I am and I am very proud to say it!

When I was 20, I was told by my family that they were worried that I was gay.  WORRIED!  Why would anyone be worried about this?  I lived in fear worried that someone would think that I was gay!  I tried so hard to live a life that my family wouldn't have to WORRY about.  I tried so hard not to embarrass or disappoint anyone.  In trying to do this, I lived a life full of depression.  I was overweight, using food to feel better.  There were times that I wanted to give up! 

Since the separation almost 2 years ago, I have finally grown and changed into a better, much, much happier person.  In fact,  I have never felt so complete.  The reason I have lost weight is cause I am happy.  Happy with my life and happy with who I am!!  

I am still an awesome Dad, actually a super awesome Dad, since Annie gets a Dad who is happy.  She gets to grow up and see her Dad truly in love and yes, love has no boundaries!  The way God intended it to be.  The way God loves each one of his creations!

This is a picture of Ryan and I.

He is a great guy and I am glad to have met him.

So, if you don't accept me for who I am, then you don't accept as your son and if that's the case, then I don't accept you as my mother.  I don't need negative, non-loving people in my life.  I am a strong person and I will survive without you.

The choice is yours.

Around the Bay Race - Sunday March 25, 2012

Well today is a day that definitely deserves a blog post.

About 2 years ago, I was sitting on my bus in Gore Park and I remember seeing all the people convening in the downtown core.  They were all on a mission.  To accomplish either a 5K or 30K run known as the Around the Bay Race.  This race is the oldest race in North America.

 The Hamilton Herald Newspaper and cigar store owner "Billy" Carroll, originated and sponsored the first "Around the Bay Road Race", run on Christmas Day, 1894. It is now the oldest road race in North America, older than the Boston Marathon which was born three years after the Around the Bay Road Race. The race tested the abilities of the finest long distance runners, but was also an avenue to lay down some bets.

I decided at that point that I wanted to join these people, however, I got sick with my Thyroid disease.  So last October, I decided to set a goal.  A goal to train and run the 5K race.

When I first started training, I could hardly run a block.  My heart would pound, and I would be gasping for air!  I have trained very hard and I mainly ran alone.  I was self conscious of what I looked like while running, and I also felt like I wasn't running fast enough.  However I kept training and believe me, there were times that I wanted to give up.

Well today proved that with determination and training, anything goal is achievable!  I completed the 5K race in 31m40s!  My fastest time yet!

That's me, Bib #8759!

 The positive energy from the other runners was amazing.  I felt so good today that I wish I could share it with everyone.  Well, I can.  Get off the couch, get out and start training!  Sign up and do the run next year!  Are you up for the Challenge?