This is probably going to be the most difficult thing I have ever done. It has taken almost 32 years to reach this point. It is time to be totally honest with myself and with people who are close to my heart.
My whole life I have felt like I was missing something. So I traveled the path that society accepts. I found a girl, we moved in together, I proposed on the beach in Cuba, we got married, we bought a house together and then had a child. After all that, I didn't feel complete. So we agreed to separate.
After Val and I separated, I decided to do a bit of soul searching. I decided to do something that has been hiding and pushed to the back of my mind since I was 10 years old!
I met a guy last November 2010 and dated him for 5 months. He wasn't out yet and said he could never come out. I figured this is good, since its all new to me, and I wasn't really sure. Well it turned out that he made me really happy but in the end, he couldn't give me what I wanted. A relationship, a companion, someone to enjoy my life with.
Since then, I have been doing a lot of thinking. I have been on dates with both men and women. However, I decided to go down a path that is definitely going to be a difficult one. A path most people don't agree with, mainly cause they don't really understand how you feel or why you feel that way. Heck, I don't even understand it, but it does feel right.
I have kept this hidden for a lot of reasons. The number one reason, is the fear of rejection. I am still the same old Joey, in fact, I am better then I was before, cause I am truly being me.
There is a few things that I ask of you, my family and my friends. Please don't judge me and please offer your support.
I have decided to "come out" cause I want my 2012 to start fresh, and I don't want to have to lie anymore.
This is who I am, take it or leave it.
The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
I hope you all have a Merry Christmas and look forward to an exciting 2012! :-)
